The relationship between what exists of the unseen
and the images that are created in one's mind
the like and dislike-ness of an image; the obscure, the observance,
the 'is' and 'isn't' between the possibilities of an image
how an image's "reality" is forced elsewhere, for psychological means.
Distant memories. Anti-photography as a kind of "what if"?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Two months

It's been two months since the start of 2011. Last year I was steadfast in my resolve of starting over for the new year. Revisiting my design roots and bringing back my creative juices and ditch the corporate world. I was looking forward to the new shift, excited even that I would be back to where I was before I accepted this job. But, as all else in this world, it seems like the most perfect laid out plans don't always go as you've hoped it would.

It's been two months since I got the most unexpected news in my career.
I got promoted.

After a whirlwind of certification exams of speculations after receiving 'test' projects and of days filled with what-will-i-do-if-i-get-it, I was promoted as a senior designer for the team in the company I work for.

I was shell-shocked. I didn't know whether I should accept it then leave as originally planned. Or to accept it and stay. Or to just flat out deny it and proceed as if nothing happened. After mulling this over for over 2 weeks, I've come to terms with how I would deal with this. I accepted the promotion and decided to stay.

I know what you're thinking - What the hell happened? I was in denial at first. At first, I was telling everybody I got the job because it was a challenge I wanted to undertake and that I wasn't ready to go anyway. It was too hard to look for that dream job I wanted.

All bullshit - when I've finally admitted to myself why I said yes in the first place. I decided to stay only because of the money. Hell yes! It wasn't as if I could pick up the new raise in any other job I would be applying for. At best, I would go back to the starting rate which is hard to get by on, especially if you're saving up for one of the biggest phases in your life.

I still don't know to this day if this was the best decision ever. I have a year to let pass by to assess things but until then...

Hello again Corporate World, am I really that hard to let go of?


In other news
(1) my pet rabbit has grown into monstrous proportions. well  - kind of. I tell you, he's HUGE now!
(2) I decided that the previous design for this blog was too green for my tastes but I am too lazy to be bothered to create a new one so I just tweaked it to let a lot more pink in. Let's see how this one lasts.
(3) I finally got around to getting a planner for this year. So far though, I haven't been using it the way I want to. I want to make it a capsule of the day that went by. But right now it's what it's supposed to be. A planner for the day/month/year. New goal: get to treating it as a day capsule... starting... uh, next week!

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